Confessions of an Heiress

Leaving Robi - 3

I tried to touch as little as possible. Somehow I got all the stuff off of him. It was just so weird. How did I not realize this kid was George Jr???

I put Jared down to play with his toys, and there was a picture of Nicole staring back at me. If it had been anyone else, I think I could have handled it. Why did it have to be Nicole Brettweiler?? George KNEW how I felt about her. She broke us up. She was a predator. She didn't just go after guys, she went after someone else's guy, that was her game, to take what someone else had. George had told me it was over with her, but she was here, with George every night, clasping and clinging and sweating on the other side of that door. George had to have been carrying on with her all along. And how many times had I fallen for his lines about not being able to get over me? All the while he was carrying on with Nicole...

The liquid bitterness of betrayal refused to stay inside me any longer and I dashed to the bathroom

Pain and heartbreak burst past my lips like shattered glass

Choking and heaving I felt life drain from me. All that was left was pain and it flowed from my throat like a tsunami.

Wretching and gasping I sobbed into the toilet, staring at my reflection which gazed at me in clouded terror, wondering where I had gone wrong. How could George do this, and not even tell me?

I had made some kind of tragic mistake with my life and I didn't know where or when or who. I was lost. Lost in my family, lost in my home, in my world, and worst of all, lost to myself. The one person I thought truly understood me turned out to be a fake, a liar and a cheat.

I stared at myself and saw only emptiness and fear which seized me in waves.

When it stopped, I was so empty I was sure that I no longer existed. There were no more tears, there was no more sound. I just shook. There was nothing left. Nothing.

I wasn't Robi's wife, I wasn't George's woman, I wasn't The Heiress and I wasn't even Caliopie. There was nothing left.

I know I probably sound like some kind of hypocrite. I was the one who went and married Robi instead of George, realistically I guess I didn't expect him to wait around forever. It's just, I thought he would tell me. It wasn't just about George marrying Nicole and having kids with her, although of all the women in Legacy Land, why did it have to be that one? And how does he turn from scum bucket to Millionaire Dad-of-the-Year in 3 months? George had become my escape in my mind, my deliverance from the unsatisfactory existence I called my life. And now, not only was George gone, but my escape was gone too.

I had to get out. I had to pull myself together and leave. I couldn't pretend to be the nanny, it wasn't a funny mix up any longer. George was on his way back. He could never know I came. I had to go. I had to go now.

When I came out of the bathroom, Gwen was there holding Jared

Just wanted to be sure everything was alright in here. I thought I heard someone being sick.

Ok Cali. You've got to get out of this fast. Think of something to tell her and then hit the door.

Oh, that was me. I completely forgot, I'm violently allergic to diapers. I uh, I take medication for it, yes, and I don't have my medication, so I'll just run out to the store right now and buy the medication I need, if that's alright and get that diaper allergy medication, yes. Ok. I'll see you later then!

Gwen called after me that George and Nicole were on their way there to meet me.

All the more reason to run.

I ducked into a taxi just as George and Nicole came up the sidewalk. I could feel George's eyes on me but he said nothing.

Even though I turned away and never looked back, I could still see George and the pregnant Nicole walking side by side down the sidewalk.

Just Drive

I told the cab driver. Where do you go when your best friend, who is also your ex lover, lives happily ever after and never tells you about it? When the offer to make your dreams come true only proves to be your worst nightmare?

Where are you going?

The cab driver asked me. He repeated it several times, but each time I tried to give an answer the words were gone before I opened my mouth. Where am I going? Where am I going? Where am I going? Where am I going? It was like a chant in my head.

The driver was the same one that had driven me to George's that morning, so eventually he drove me to Shanley Manor. He looked back at me as I fought to restrain the tears that refused to stay behind my eyes.

"There's no place like home" he shrugged. He'd been driving me around for almost an hour, so I decided to give him a break and get out.

There it was. Shanley Manor. I'd only been gone for a few hours. Only the house knew I'd left.

I couldn't even run away from home. Another wave of tears hit me and I cried because I'd left, and because I'd come back.

Because everything had changed, but nothing was going to be different.

But then....

....maybe....

.....everything would be different....

The End

Director's Note ~
There is a video/slideshow for this episode. As you can imagine, this was a difficult episode for me to write, in fact, my muse ran away to Strangetown trying not to think about what 'we' had to do to Cali. Music is often a big part of my writing and very often there is one song in particular that will drive an episode. Daniel Powter's song "Bad Day" has been following me around in my head for months now and then one day something went *pop* and I realized that that song was this Heiress Episode - that's why it was following me. Once I realized that, I knew how to write the episode. It's not unusual that I take many more pictures than I use in an episode. For this episode there were over 300 pictures taken - I used about 50. Even once the episode was done, my muse was still restless, there was something it still wanted to say - but not with words. I realized I wanted you to see this episode the way I saw it in my head, as I put it together. I assembled a slideshow, using some of the pictures that didn't make it into the episode and set them to the song that is at the heart of this part of the story. This video doesn't give you anything truly new to the story, but I wanted you to experience it the way I did.

Cali's Bad Day

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